A simple request. Leave me alone.
I beg of you.
I did not ask to be born.
I did not ask to be put into a high school you paid for. In fact, I BEGGED to be put somewhere else for free.
No...I never asked. Rather I'm thrown about on a leash. As always.
You tell me I have options and from them I have choices to make.
That I can do what I want with my life to be happy.
Is that really so?
What if what I want is what you would not accept?

I am your disgrace.

I cannot speak to you.
You hear what you wish to hear.
You do not pay attention.
You do not listen to what I have to say.
You do not have an open mind.
I cannot vent out my frustrations to you.
And you wonder why I am so quiet?
Do not waste your time in trying to pry.

What a shame that the love I feel towards you both is out of duty.
I feel like everything I do is to pay you back because I owe you. Because I have to.

Mother, Father.
I am sorry.

NOTHING!

What could I possibly be needed for? Absolutely nothing. I have never been of use. I often get the feeling that all this is NOTHING. That death and life are NOTHING. We die and that is all. We die and are nothing. Nothing comes after this. Nothing. Man created God and Satan as a HOPE that there is SOMETHING. But no. There is nothing. I am a godless child of the earth. I appreciate and love everything before me fully aware that when I am gone, there is nothing.